6 weeks 0 days

Today I am 6 weeks. Symptoms are still the same but the nausea has seemingly died down. Now it's just more a constant hunger. Is little peanut going through a growth spurt? Gosh I hope so.

Why is it easier to tell someone not to worry than it is to do just that? Why do I have to keep seeing people posting on my due date board saying that they're leaving? Why do I have to sometimes read those posts and see how far along they were? Or how far along they were *supposed* to be. I am 6 weeks today and have my appointment in about 3 weeks. 3 long, torturous weeks. I am praying that we don't go in like some women at 8 or 9 weeks only to see that their little beans stopped growing at 6 weeks. How do you deal with that? How do you deal with reading that someone lost their baby while you're pregnant & hoping upon hope that your baby is ok?

Why can't I just be like "one of those" women who sail through their pregnancies seemingly unaware of all that could go wrong? Who seem to have not a care in the world.

On a lighter note- I think John just gave the little one a nickname. I was calling him/her peanut. He just called him/her our little pebble. I like that better than peanut- everyone calls their baby peanut or jelly bean or something. I want something different for our little pebble hehe The name just sticks.

I've been feeling bad today- Delilah had been having a difficult afternoon which crossed over into a difficult evening for me. I know later it was closer to her bedtime but I had been short with her a few times. I try so hard to keep my mood in check. I don't want to take things out on her or get too moody with her. It's not her fault- she's just being an almost 2 year old.

5 weeks 5 days

I'm 5 weeks, 5 days today. Things have been going pretty well- I've had nausea, of course using the bathroom a lot, I've been hungry a lot, and... that's about it I think. I've had a lot of cravings- mostly for salty things or veggies. I'm totally craving cottage cheese with peaches & hummus with carrots or crackers. My first appointment is scheduled for August 16th & it sure as heck can't come soon enough! I can't wait to get there & get the reassurance that lil peanut is ok and growing properly.

Delilah's been so cute- the other day we were all sitting on the couch. She turned to me, patted my arm & said "Hi momma." Then she turned to John, patted his arm & said "Hi daddy." I asked her if she could say hi to the baby. I knew she didn't really know what exactly I meant so I took her hand, put it on my belly & said "Hi baby." Then I asked her if she could do it. She then put her hand on my stomach & said "Hi baby." Ever since then if I ask her where mommy's baby is she'll pat my tummy. I also can't wait for my appointment because Delilah & John are going to be with me and I'm excited for Delilah to see the baby on the screen.

I've been going through a lot of mixed emotions- I go from being scared that something has happened to being reassured because peanut reminds me he/she is in there when he/she makes me nauseous. I'm terrified of having a missed miscarriage- it doesn't help that I see stuff like that on my due date board on fertilityfriend. I don't read the posts though- I can't. And then I feel bad that I'm not offering these women who just lost their babies words of support. I sure did forget how worried I was when I was pregnant with Delilah. It's not any better this time!

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Welcome to The Williams Family Pregnancy Blog. Follow along as I experience this journey for the second time around & we prepare to make Delilah a big sister!